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Well something is going down. He’s lying about this chick story. I just feel it! Wish I was wrong. What a coward with no character. I really pity him. But love the dick. Lol

LMMFAO!

Well, Eric had surgery yesterday. So supposedly Judy texts me. Doubt it was her but it made me laugh nonetheless.

Anyway we were talking on the phone having a good conversation. I now know however he’s full of shit with that car loaning story! Anyway… he was talking saying Judy said he has to choose between her and me. Said he might move out. We talked about Sunday when we hooked up. Well all of a sudden I hear… “Is that her!?” Then he hung up. Lmao. He texted me and was like he’s so fucked and he’s busted. She was listening to our conversation for 10 minutes! Oh well… welcome to my stressed world. Plus, if you cheated on me, you deserve much more than inconvenience. You better act right cuz again… I got nothing to lose! Can’t wait to talk to Judy! Lol

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Well something is going down. He’s lying about this chick story. I just feel it! Wish I was wrong. What a coward with no character. I really pity him. But love the dick. Lol No wonder his son is a mess still pissing in the bed and shit. Lmao

Met with Rob and…

Finally met with Rob. He’s a little out there but was fun. Red lobster baby,a place Eric doesn’t take me to even though I like it, it’s just he doesn’t. Anyway, not a good kisser, but me claims to eat well. Lol AND Spencer called me. I think I’m good! ;)

Well, we met and God, I missed him

We FINALLY were able to get together. He kissed me so softly and made my drinks and got dinner for us. Only 1 round, but he always makes me feel soo good. Yes, he did please me. He ate me good and fucked me better. I’ll enjoy it as much as I can, but I am determined to fuck his life up when I move on. Can’t wait for Karma to get o his daughter; someone is going to do her JUST as he treated me. I wish he treated me better. Am I no longer attractive to him? That car story sounds very suspect and it seems like that’s when things changed. IT’S JUST DICK, albeit very talented.

If he doesn’t start acting right…

I’m feeling much better now. Not as upset, realizing he’s just a dick. But I’ve been too good to him and if he pushes me and keeps acting shitty, I’m going to get out of order. Lol I’m thinking of the best way to fuck his shit up. I might go to the Temple with some pix, I might send them in the mail, but by next week, of shit isn’t back to basic, I WILL call her; I’ve already made my mind up about that. If he wants to be a dick, he’s about to turn on the bitch. Hell, I’ve got NOTHING to lose! This may be fun! ;)

This is difficult…

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I’m still very upset. Just cried all the way home from school. Well, part of it is the movie we saw in Spanish class. A love story. Eric has been very cruel to me. I won’t find another lover like him; but hope I can. I sent him a pic and like 5 hours later, he says no mms messages after 5. ANOTHER new rule. That upset me. I was hoping he said I looked sexy or SOMETHING! But no. Then, he was supposed to let me know if Wednesday we could do lunch and… nothing. Not a text, call or email. I think he has lost interest in me, if he WAS ever interested. I feel helpless, hopeless… and worthless. I hurt.

This dude rocks my world!

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He’s so awesome in bed with a fat, juicy thick cock! Luscious!

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Goodbye My Cousin’s NY Pizzeria!

food_cousins01Well, on Wednesday, my husband was told the restaurant was sold!  So much for advanced notice!  But I am really, REALLY pissed because not only did they only give him a 2-day notice, THEY ALSO PUT IN THE CONTRACT OF THE SALE THAT MY HUSBAND IS TO WORK 40 HOURS FOR FREE to help the new owners!  Now… if that is not a load of shit, I do not know what it.  But – and here is the kicker – if his ass is unemployed and he has no ownership whatsoever, why go and work for free?  Did the lawyers create the agreement for free?  Better yet, DOES ANYONE WORK FOR FUCKING FREE!  It just shows how much of an asshole he is because although he is loyal to his “job,” he was never that loyal to his family.  He would never take off of work because he would not make money – so he claims.  Now he is going to work for NO MONEY!  How ironic, n’est pas?!  Oh well, fuck it!  He is not coming on my trip to Disney later this month because – get this – he said he could not afford to take the time off from work!  I am literally LMMFAO!  Now… he has NOTHING but time.  He was so committed to them and they showed their committment to him by giving him 2-day notice AND requiring him to work for free for the new owners!    Oh, well, I will be loving my 1 bedroom suite with jacuzzi tub on my 8-day vacation to Disney with the kids.  You go ahead and do what you do; but now, do it for free while your family suffers as usual!   You’re such a dumb fuck!  I should have picked better!  But your loyalty will always reside with those who want to fuck you the hardest.  In 20 years, you have never learned that!  So I’m gonna let it do what it do!   Thank goodness for my PPS!  You made all those sacifices for work and look for it has done for you… and for me!  ;)  I waited 20 years for you to realize you should work to live, not live to work.  You still don’t get it.  Imbeciles never do!

Oh yeah, I’m ready to party… like IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! LMAO


I can’t believe people called the front desk saying they smelled weed, I’m with my girls and it’s my birthday! Fuck off!

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My Papas rellenas – 1/2 eaten of course. Lol

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This is my prison husband on set! Fun!

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My marriage is OVER!!! I’m DONE!

Well, it was another fun evening last night. Ronnie came home, showered, ate and had a drink. A few actually.  I had one, only because he kept asking if he was drinking alone – I succumbed to the peer pressure. But I figured it was late and bed would soon call. I’m SUCH the idiot.

He starts by stroking my hair, telling me how beautiful I am without makeup and that from the moment he saw me, he thought I was beautiful and that he wanted to get to know me.  I thanked him.  He did it some more, but he has been sleeping in the basement lately and has been very harsh and curt with me, and I am cool with that – TRUSS!

Then… it started.   The arguing. He LOVES to hear himself argue with me. Probably because since I am not the arguing type, I keep my mouth shut and let him argue with himself. LOL   As usual, he went on and on and fucking on! But I’m used to it now and turn him out like a screaming child on an airplane. Why did I have to see my friend before I went to NY? Why don’t I have anything to say? Why don’t I go and put on some lingerie and walk around for him in it? Why don’t I have ANY remorse? Why, Why, Why?  These are all questions he knows the answer to, but he, himself, is like a child; talking and talking until SOMEONE gives in so he can have his way. But my will is strong; but he somehow managed to weaken me.  I suppose since he was not getting a rise out of me, this is what he says next, “It’s your fault your son is gay.  It’s YOUR fault he got molested and that’s why he is like that!”  Very uncharacteristic of me, I decide this argument is over (that is usually his determination, but not tonight)! I got up and said, “I am going to bed!”  THEN, he proceeds to follow me all over the house, arguing; while I am brushing my teeth, while I am undressing, while I am taking out my eyes, his voice is incessant, spewing shit that I have tuned out.

Those words hurt me. Although I KNOW it is not my fault, the things that happened to my son and how he is, HOW DARE HE?!  HOW DARE HE SAY THOSE HURTFUL THINGS TO ME?!  If there EVER was a chance for us to reconcile, he just tossed it out the window. I already am totally grossed out when I have to have sex with him, which I only do to end an argument or to shut him the hell up!  Never because I desire him – not lately.  Any chance of me feeling guilty for what I have done, aw come on, who I am kidding, I am GLAD I did what I did otherwise I would have missed out big time. I have been with my husband 20 years, yet his job was his unyielding mistress; the object of his desire and that which monopolized ALL of his time. I begged and pleded for him to spend time with me and his sons before I decided to cheat on him. I did not want to cheat on him because he never cheated on me, but yet… I felt CHEATED.  No fancy restaurants, no weekend getaways (then who would work?), no time to take his kids to the park.  No, work was the priority and that is when I made finding someone to spend my free time with a priority.

But back to the other shit – his hurtful words. I do not think I can EVER lay down with him again.  Even though it took all I could muster to do it before, I don’t think I can ever do it again. How can I lay with someone who blames me for my son being gay AND for his molestation?  How can I ever love him again after that?  I choose my words VERY carefully so I know I do not say hurtful things, but he does not have that filter. If he said that to get a rise out of me, it worked. I will be rising up very soon to see a divorce lawyer because I can suffer no more. I want out and I want to see what the world has been like while I have been letting my life pass me by waiting for my husband to notice me and his sons.

My second son confessed to me that, because my hubby is never around, he wishes he had a step-dad who would do things with him. Well, son, I am sorry, I waitied so long waiting for your father to come around, but in time, your wish will be my command!

Me and Paulie

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Me and Paulie M.

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Golden Gloves 2009

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Grandma!

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Kids at Detroit Waterfront at NCAA Final 4

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Girls night out


I went out with Mel for Starr’s birthday. We went to Southbeach Pizza Bar. Soooo expensive!

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Backspin & Str8Isis – REUNITED!

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Where did I go so wrong?!

Well, just ranting here.  I feel like I do not control my life. I am alive, but very unhappy. My husband is a fucking lunatic stalker with one of the smallest dicks I have ever had. I NEED a well-endowed man in my life – NEED IT! My hubby was never really concerned with pleasing me, because he was ALWAYS pleased. I used to love sucking his dick, letting him have his way with me – any way he wanted. But still, I was getting no .. “satisfaction!”  I thought if I tried different things, maybe, just MAYBE, I would cum or get some enjoyment.  Sure, I came every now and then, but boy did I have to concentrate very hard and I had to keep an image of a massively huge thick throbbing pink cock in my mind to facititate my orgams.

That brings me to this point – yet again. I DO have a lover; a pretty well-endowed lover who is SO great in bed. His ultimate goad is to please ME!  What a fucking novelty! For the almost 20 years of my marriage, I NEVER DREAMED that men get great pleasure from thoroughly pleasing a woman. My very capable lover taught me that. I mean in September during an evening with my lover, PPS, I had my very first MULTIPLE ORGASM! I don’t know how or why, but let me tell you, it was the most amazing experience of my life and I have him to thank for it. My husband NEVER was concerned about my pleasure first and foremost.  But my lover opened up so much to me. I mean of course the sex is great, but we have some good conversations, he takes me ANYWHERE I ask for dinner, he pampers me a little here and there (just don’t ask his cheap ass for money – that is his downfall and potential reason for me to be moving along – but not until I find an adequate replacement – GOOD LUCK!!). But even more spectaular than his dick is his kissing ability. I mean DAMN, this Jew can fuck and is the best kisser I have ever had. I literally melt in his arms when he kisses me – I love it!

I really wish I could keep Ronnie’s upper body, exchange his lower body (and the technique he uses) for my lover and I would have the perfect man for me! lol

I think I will soon be on a quest to find another mate. I am so unhappy. And if I leave my husband, I will leave my lover.  Because I want to start fresh and new. And if I cannot find a lover like MY lover, I can always make that booty call to him – I know he will answer. ;)

Being with my lover for a few hours is worth any and all hell that breaks loose when I get busted – because I already had my fun and can hardly listen to the arguing over the contentful hum of my satisfied pussy!

Yes, I am willing to loose my marriage to continue fucking him. Because how me makes me feel in bed is better than my husband can ever make me feel, physically AND emotionally!

Sorry, Charlie! :D

Happy Birthday, Sef!

My brother turns 36 on December 11th!  We wre there to celebrate!

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Work at Vicente’s

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Goodbye, Car! Boo Hoo

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Do you think I am pretty?

I think I am an attractive female.  Do you think I have what it takes to find a man who is intelligent, caring, attentive and well-endowed?  Is that SO much to ask?!!?!!

lmao!

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My hair!

I tried something different with my hair. I like it and it is so soft, too!

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This is my awesome lover!

Yep, this is him. The dude with the biggest dick I have had in my adult life! And he sure knows JUST how to work it for me!

La Cheim! lol

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AeroGarden – It really works!

This is a picture of my aerogarden, but within 5 weeks, it was ready to be harvested! It works very well and that is coming from someone who literally has a black thumb! LMAO!!

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Me and him

This is a picture of my husband! Yes… the one with the small dick! But he’s mine! whoo hoo!!  :(

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Spiderman, Spiderman!

Isn’t he cute? No, hubby is not around as usual, so I took this pic. I will not share it with hubby – his job matters more!

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Happy Anniversary!

Our 14-year anniversary and I gave him this set. Want to know what I got… NOTHING!!!

SEE, I need to go!

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My son with a hat

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Me with straight hair

If you really want me and you think I’m sexy, come on sugar, let me know! lol

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