Dumb fuck!

So faggot Ron spent about 20 minutes going though my phone. I HATE a bitch move like that.   He looked MIGHTY pathetic as there was no “EVIDENCE”of me cheating; the charitable years with him have taught me well. I will NEVER initiate sex with him, nor will I enjoy it when I’m forced to fuck his small dick ass. I’d rather not fuck at all than fuck his ass exclusively -seriously! Yick! Lol I miss the one he drove away and always will!

My dear…

I miss you so much; I fear you are gone. Can you easily forget me… the fun we had? The wait is agonizing! Just let me know.

Ronnie’s bitch ass strikes again.

So I’m having a GREAT Sweetie’s day with Craig, dinner, conversation, SEXUAL FUN… After round 2, with round 1 being outside on his huge patio, he falls asleep. I wax intending on spending the might, but something in me said to get up and go home.  I did. The usual argument at home, blah blah blah. Anyway I get a text from Craig that RONNIE CALLED HIM. I HATE HIM; it is official! If I could leave tonight, I would. I’m done with that bitch and I think Craig is done with me I REALLY liked him, too.

I may get a room tomorrow and stay spend the night out. I’m so embarrassed and pissed. Fuck everything!

House Date!

Yesterday, October 9th, on a whim, Big C planned a date at his house. I thought we’d meet in Livonia but I digress.

It was a far drive, but worth it! He wanted to take me to dinner, go bowling then watch a movie at his place. Let me say I LOVE his house; 3 bedrooms finished basement colonial with garage. Definitely a place worthy of me. About 1300 sq ft without basement. And the deck… OMG. So he gives me a tour of the place and asks where we should eat. I pick Fridays and we’re off.

We ate, talked, drank and laughed. He hit a homerun in softball. I knew we weren’t going to make it to bowling… I wanted him!

We get back to his place and he says we can do whatever I want. I said we should watch the movie naked. He laughed and was upstairs and nude in a New York minute. I disrobed as well. I was lying in his arms but I wanted to taste him so I did. Then he tasted me. Then he sucked my nipples so good preparing me for his entry.

I LOVE his dick. We did it in almost all the positions. For round 2, he asked to put it in my as and of course I did. Took a long time, but I finally got used to his big dick and got all of it inside me. He was grateful; so was I because I came good and hard. He wanted me to spend the night; maybe next time. I really like him. He’s sweet.

My NEW and IMPROVED lover!

It was our third date. He first took me out the Saturday after my birthday. Then we met on July 27th for HIS birthday. We had such great conversation that sex didn’t even come up. But this time, August 7th, we planned a quick bite then head to a hotel.

Wow. I had such an awesome evening with my NEW friend, Big C. Met at Fridays and then he took me to the Residence Inn. Money was no object, he just WANTED me. KILLER body, BIG DICK, sweet and 3 FUCKING ROUNDS. His big long dick hurt the shit out of me, but it felt so friggin great. The sounds he made were mega hot. He REALLY appreciated my talents and voiced that, which I love. He said I sucked him PERFECTLY! He loved my body and be said I was driving him insane. Mmmm!  Ditched E tonight for C and glad I did! He can eat and is QUITE the squirter! 

It is my birthday…

And I miss you!

To Eric Robert Solomon…

Usted nunca encontrará a nadie mejor que yo. Vete a la mierda, mi amor.

You will never find anyone better than me. Fuck off mi amor.

BUSTED!

LMAO. Well, finally. Eric claims Judy heard our conversation today (11/19/2009), and told him to leave. He said she told him to make a choice between me or her. He said he’d move out. Looks like she kicked him out. We’ll see…

All good things…

I’m feeling sad. E’s wife set them up for counseling. Now he says he might keep going, and if he does, he will stop seeing me. Seems cold to me it would be so easy to let me go. I guess I really mean nothing! I hate my life and wish… I do! I thought he was a friend, but I guess all I really ever was, was a fuck! Does Karma get around to Jews? I hope so. I was nothing but good to him. I guess I’m foolish to think it wouldn’t end! UPDATE: SEE BUSTED NOTE. I love you Karma!!

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Traducción automática (español): usted nunca será feliz, porque me trata mal Texto original (inglés): you will never be happy because you treated me badly

Sadness

I can’t do this anymore. When you reached out to me for help, I did all I could to assist. Then you fucking block me. I love you, but I love you enough to finally let you go. But more importantly, I love MYSELF enough to no longer tolerate how you’ve been treating me! I’ve allowed you to use me for the last time. I now find it impossible to enjoy a big dick that’s attached to such a HUGE prick! You were right, something better was out there just waiting for me. Usted nunca estará feliz porque me trataron mal.

IT IS REALLY OVER!

He cancelled on me AGAIN Saturday night. I’m so hurt. He sent me an im to break it off. I’ve been getting the fucked up vibe, but he kept playing me; which, because I want him so much, I allowed. He said he thinks we should move on… he is right!

That lucky bitch…

Well, I met with my PPS becausr, honestly, I needed to talk about my rights over my asshole husband’s situation. Anyway, we met and talked and he was very sincere and offered advice. Then he proceeds to tell me he’s staying at his dad’s because he’s kicked out. Judy saw a lawyer, AND pulled $20,000 out the bank cuz he spent money on me. Lmao. Not sure if divorce is eminent, but his cheap ass deserves it; he should have treated me better. NO REGRETS! HA HA. I want to walk away so bad, but my dumb ass would get nada. Damn, did I fuck up my life or what. I should’ve done MUCH better!

Damn, that dick is good!

I met with Eric today. I called him and asked of we could meet and he wanted to meet today, Friday. I just wanted to talk and he was an awesome listener and offered great advice. Judy tool

It’s back on! ;)

Well, I met with my bfc! That’s right.  Okay… we met Saturday night, had dinner at Champps and went back to dad’s. I guess I tucked up the internet and blew up a soda can in the freezer, but I was alone; and had a blast. Lol Then we met Friday afternoon and I fucking loved it. I loved how he hurt the shit out of my tight pussy with his huge cock! Can’t wait for next time.

Carmie

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PUNK ASS BITCH!

So we met for lunch last Friday and then some yum yum after work.  The mother fucker pulled out a condom and actually put that shit on! lmao! I let him fuck me for a minute and when he would not let me take the condom off to ride him, I got off of his luscious dick… and left! FUCK HIM!  I CAN’T TAKE ANYMORE!

My hair… STR8! Yep, straight hair for first time in almost 2 years. What ya think? Lol

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Powder, I MISS YOU!

My dog died suddenly Thursday morning, 01/14/2010. I love and miss him so much! RIP until we’re re-united.

My deep state of depression

I think it is COMPLETELY over with my lover.  I got really pissed at him and I even called his fucking wife.  I left her a message with pertinent facts.  I DO NOT REGRET it even if it meant we can’t be friends.  I put up with his shit for far too long.  I miss him so much though.  I think of him first thing in the morning, very frequently throughout the day and he is the last thing on my mind before I go to bed.  

He never cared about me.  I know this is true now.  NEVER!!  It is very hard to get over him because I have NO IDEA how, where or what went wrong with us.  But I still believe HE cheated on me and has moved on.  He changed his phone number which as I recall is what he did right after I met him! lol  The pattern…

Oh well, I will be depressed for quite a while I am sure.  Hoping he will call, email or text me.  But it is the day after Christmas and he DID NOT text or acknowledge me yesterday and I am very hurt by that.  We were together almost 4 years and he is treating me like… NO ONE! 

My only regret is that I ended up caring and falling in love with him and I am devastated because of it.   ;(

LMAO

Well something is going down. He’s lying about this chick story. I just feel it! Wish I was wrong. What a coward with no character. I really pity him. But love the dick. Lol

LMMFAO!

Well, Eric had surgery yesterday. So supposedly Judy texts me. Doubt it was her but it made me laugh nonetheless.

Anyway we were talking on the phone having a good conversation. I now know however he’s full of shit with that car loaning story! Anyway… he was talking saying Judy said he has to choose between her and me. Said he might move out. We talked about Sunday when we hooked up. Well all of a sudden I hear… “Is that her!?” Then he hung up. Lmao. He texted me and was like he’s so fucked and he’s busted. She was listening to our conversation for 10 minutes! Oh well… welcome to my stressed world. Plus, if you cheated on me, you deserve much more than inconvenience. You better act right cuz again… I got nothing to lose! Can’t wait to talk to Judy! Lol

LMAO

Well something is going down. He’s lying about this chick story. I just feel it! Wish I was wrong. What a coward with no character. I really pity him. But love the dick. Lol No wonder his son is a mess still pissing in the bed and shit. Lmao

Met with Rob and…

Finally met with Rob. He’s a little out there but was fun. Red lobster baby,a place Eric doesn’t take me to even though I like it, it’s just he doesn’t. Anyway, not a good kisser, but me claims to eat well. Lol AND Spencer called me. I think I’m good!

Well, we met and God, I missed him

We FINALLY were able to get together. He kissed me so softly and made my drinks and got dinner for us. Only 1 round, but he always makes me feel soo good. Yes, he did please me. He ate me good and fucked me better. I’ll enjoy it as much as I can, but I am determined to fuck his life up when I move on. Can’t wait for Karma to get o his daughter; someone is going to do her JUST as he treated me. I wish he treated me better. Am I no longer attractive to him? That car story sounds very suspect and it seems like that’s when things changed. IT’S JUST DICK, albeit very talented.

If he doesn’t start acting right…

I’m feeling much better now. Not as upset, realizing he’s just a dick. But I’ve been too good to him and if he pushes me and keeps acting shitty, I’m going to get out of order. Lol I’m thinking of the best way to fuck his shit up. I might go to the Temple with some pix, I might send them in the mail, but by next week, of shit isn’t back to basic, I WILL call her; I’ve already made my mind up about that. If he wants to be a dick, he’s about to turn on the bitch. Hell, I’ve got NOTHING to lose! This may be fun!

This is difficult…

I’m still very upset. Just cried all the way home from school. Well, part of it is the movie we saw in Spanish class. A love story. Eric has been very cruel to me. I won’t find another lover like him; but hope I can. I sent him a pic and like 5 hours later, he says no mms messages after 5. ANOTHER new rule. That upset me. I was hoping he said I looked sexy or SOMETHING! But no. Then, he was supposed to let me know if Wednesday we could do lunch and… nothing. Not a text, call or email. I think he has lost interest in me, if he WAS ever interested. I feel helpless, hopeless… and worthless. I hurt.

This dude rocks my world!

He’s so awesome in bed with a fat, juicy thick cock! Luscious!

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Goodbye My Cousin’s NY Pizzeria!

Well, on Wednesday, my husband was told the restaurant was sold!  So much for advanced notice!  But I am really, REALLY pissed because not only did they only give him a 2-day notice, THEY ALSO PUT IN THE CONTRACT OF THE SALE THAT MY HUSBAND IS TO WORK 40 HOURS FOR FREE to help the new owners!  Now… if that is not a load of shit, I do not know what it.  But – and here is the kicker – if his ass is unemployed and he has no ownership whatsoever, why go and work for free?  Did the lawyers create the agreement for free?  Better yet, DOES ANYONE WORK FOR FUCKING FREE!  It just shows how much of an asshole he is because although he is loyal to his “job,” he was never that loyal to his family.  He would never take off of work because he would not make money – so he claims.  Now he is going to work for NO MONEY!  How ironic, n’est pas?!  Oh well, fuck it!  He is not coming on my trip to Disney later this month because – get this – he said he could not afford to take the time off from work!  I am literally LMMFAO!  Now… he has NOTHING but time.  He was so committed to them and they showed their committment to him by giving him 2-day notice AND requiring him to work for free for the new owners!    Oh, well, I will be loving my 1 bedroom suite with jacuzzi tub on my 8-day vacation to Disney with the kids.  You go ahead and do what you do; but now, do it for free while your family suffers as usual!   You’re such a dumb fuck!  I should have picked better!  But your loyalty will always reside with those who want to fuck you the hardest.  In 20 years, you have never learned that!  So I’m gonna let it do what it do!   Thank goodness for my PPS!  You made all those sacifices for work and look for it has done for you… and for me!  ;)  I waited 20 years for you to realize you should work to live, not live to work.  You still don’t get it.  Imbeciles never do!

Oh yeah, I’m ready to party… like IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! LMAO

I can’t believe people called the front desk saying they smelled weed, I’m with my girls and it’s my birthday! Fuck off!

My Papas rellenas – 1/2 eaten of course. Lol

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This is my prison husband on set! Fun!

My marriage is OVER!!! I’m DONE!

Well, it was another fun evening last night. Ronnie came home, showered, ate and had a drink. A few actually.  I had one, only because he kept asking if he was drinking alone – I succumbed to the peer pressure. But I figured it was late and bed would soon call. I’m SUCH the idiot.

He starts by stroking my hair, telling me how beautiful I am without makeup and that from the moment he saw me, he thought I was beautiful and that he wanted to get to know me.  I thanked him.  He did it some more, but he has been sleeping in the basement lately and has been very harsh and curt with me, and I am cool with that – TRUSS!

Then… it started.   The arguing. He LOVES to hear himself argue with me. Probably because since I am not the arguing type, I keep my mouth shut and let him argue with himself. LOL   As usual, he went on and on and fucking on! But I’m used to it now and turn him out like a screaming child on an airplane. Why did I have to see my friend before I went to NY? Why don’t I have anything to say? Why don’t I go and put on some lingerie and walk around for him in it? Why don’t I have ANY remorse? Why, Why, Why?  These are all questions he knows the answer to, but he, himself, is like a child; talking and talking until SOMEONE gives in so he can have his way. But my will is strong; but he somehow managed to weaken me.  I suppose since he was not getting a rise out of me, this is what he says next, “It’s your fault your son is gay.  It’s YOUR fault he got molested and that’s why he is like that!”  Very uncharacteristic of me, I decide this argument is over (that is usually his determination, but not tonight)! I got up and said, “I am going to bed!”  THEN, he proceeds to follow me all over the house, arguing; while I am brushing my teeth, while I am undressing, while I am taking out my eyes, his voice is incessant, spewing shit that I have tuned out.

Those words hurt me. Although I KNOW it is not my fault, the things that happened to my son and how he is, HOW DARE HE?!  HOW DARE HE SAY THOSE HURTFUL THINGS TO ME?!  If there EVER was a chance for us to reconcile, he just tossed it out the window. I already am totally grossed out when I have to have sex with him, which I only do to end an argument or to shut him the hell up!  Never because I desire him – not lately.  Any chance of me feeling guilty for what I have done, aw come on, who I am kidding, I am GLAD I did what I did otherwise I would have missed out big time. I have been with my husband 20 years, yet his job was his unyielding mistress; the object of his desire and that which monopolized ALL of his time. I begged and pleded for him to spend time with me and his sons before I decided to cheat on him. I did not want to cheat on him because he never cheated on me, but yet… I felt CHEATED.  No fancy restaurants, no weekend getaways (then who would work?), no time to take his kids to the park.  No, work was the priority and that is when I made finding someone to spend my free time with a priority.

But back to the other shit – his hurtful words. I do not think I can EVER lay down with him again.  Even though it took all I could muster to do it before, I don’t think I can ever do it again. How can I lay with someone who blames me for my son being gay AND for his molestation?  How can I ever love him again after that?  I choose my words VERY carefully so I know I do not say hurtful things, but he does not have that filter. If he said that to get a rise out of me, it worked. I will be rising up very soon to see a divorce lawyer because I can suffer no more. I want out and I want to see what the world has been like while I have been letting my life pass me by waiting for my husband to notice me and his sons.

My second son confessed to me that, because my hubby is never around, he wishes he had a step-dad who would do things with him. Well, son, I am sorry, I waitied so long waiting for your father to come around, but in time, your wish will be my command!

Me and Paulie

Me and Paulie M.

Golden Gloves 2009

Grandma!

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Kids at Detroit Waterfront at NCAA Final 4

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Girls night out

I went out with Mel for Starr’s birthday. We went to Southbeach Pizza Bar. Soooo expensive!

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